of course you know i got my dexcom about a month ago. and i've been wearing it ever since. it's a blessing and a curse.
yesterday, i tweeted this picture:
yeah. that made me feel AWESOME.
my dexcom is amazing because it shows me if i'm steady, heading up or down and usually is very accurate. it's a curse because i can see my trends and i feel like i really don't have great control. that feeling completely sucks. i'm responsible for myself, yet it doesn't look like i'm trying. and OF COURSE i am. it's not like i get to take a break from this crap. and sometimes, i can't figure out why the hell my graph looks like this. yesterday i hung out at 200 or above, and had hardly eaten anything. talk about frustration. i changed my site and suddenly, after dinner, i was 46. WHAT?? and it felt like a horrid low since i was high all day. but of course, back up again and i'm hanging out in the 200s this morning. what is going ON? maybe it could be stress, i'm not real people sick (unless i have some sort of sickness where i feel totally normal), could it be these sinus headaches?
either way, i'm wondering if i should take a break for even just a week. maybe seeing those higher numbers and glucoasters are freaking me out and making it worse.
suck it, diabetes.
I think taking a break sometimes from my CGM is much needed. I like to use it to see trends, but it's not a 24/7 thing for me. It also hurts my skin. You are working hard! Diabetes is tough and annoying, so hang in there!
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine what it must be like to know your BG levels all the time. I freak out over mine and I only have to face them 4 times a day.
ReplyDeleteThink about this way -- it's a tool. Even without the Dex, you already knew you had days like this. So try and use it as a tool to see beyond what a meter can show you. I know how you feel -- when you don't have a no-hitter, it can feel like a failure. But you know good and well, that's not true. Good luck friend! Adjusting to a Dex can be tough -- a lot of info at one time! If it helps you feel better, I lowed my A1c considerably after only three months with Ben, and I did so with several days like your photo above! Much love from the Ala-bam-there-it-is. ;)
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