random things

my blood sugar has been better. i think all of the infections and medicines are now out of my body and i feel more stable. thank god.

i need to find my motivation to get back to regular exercise. i thought i'd found it a few weeks ago, but it went somewhere again. it might be the weather. (speaking of weather, it's going to be 65 here today. what the hell, winter?) i have a groupon for another bootcamp to try out, i need to set that up.

i've been teaching a friend about diabetes stuff. i like when people want to learn. and ya know, a refresher to remind myself that i still know what i'm doing after 11 years.

it's amazing how, after the crazy blood sugars from being sick leveled out, my dexcom is such an awesome teaching tool. i have also realized, yet again, that carbs are the devil. when i don't have bread, pasta, etc, i have such a nice little graph. but the minute i do, it's glucoaster time. annoying. (i have also noticed that ice cream is not the devil. maybe wendell should have said no pizza or loaves of bread. ass.) i'm rediscovering my love for salad. (and the unwich at jimmy johns. delicious lettuce wrap? yes please!)


january is over already? whaaaaaaaaaaat?? that's fine. bring it on, february.

[almost] wordless wednesday

i'm not jinxing anything ... but this is a 12 hour graph.

that is all.

(if i have a no-hitter, i might cry. this does not count as jinxing. because it's tiny font and italic so it's like no one saw it anyway.)

back at it

remember that whole burn out thing? yeah. when that happens, sometimes you eat like crap. and that makes blood sugar go crazy. mmhmm. i'm not saying this happened to me, but i'm not saying it didn't.

but now i'm over that, yay! and salads are sounding delicious lately (and i had a terrifying choking episode when i was out to lunch with mom last week, thanks lettuce); i'm back at trying to do the no sweets, or as few sweets as possible ... it's working. waking up with blood sugar at 95 feels good. :)

meter: 95, cgm: 100. win.

and next week (february ... it's already february?? sheesh.) i'll be back at the gym and i'm excited about that. maybe the crowds will be dwindling from all the new year's resolution people? we'll see.

so yay for being healthy!

oh hey burnout

i'm here. i still have this blog. i'm just in one of those 'i don't feel like talking about diabetes right now' weeks.

my blood sugars are pissing me off. i'm trying to keep them under control. i'll be around.

in other news, it SNOWED today. even though it was just for an hour, there might be more coming. and it's a nice little dusting. we don't get a ton like you folk up east ;) 

just for funsies: 

a break.

well this is a fun post to write after an exciting little celebration yesterday.

of course you know i got my dexcom about a month ago. and i've been wearing it ever since. it's a blessing and a curse.

yesterday, i tweeted this picture:

yeah. that made me feel AWESOME.

my dexcom is amazing because it shows me if i'm steady, heading up or down and usually is very accurate. it's a curse because i can see my trends and i feel like i really don't have great control. that feeling completely sucks. i'm responsible for myself, yet it doesn't look like i'm trying. and OF COURSE i am. it's not like i get to take a break from this crap. and sometimes, i can't figure out why the hell my graph looks like this. yesterday i hung out at 200 or above, and had hardly eaten anything. talk about frustration. i changed my site and suddenly, after dinner, i was 46. WHAT?? and it felt like a horrid low since i was high all day. but of course, back up again and i'm hanging out in the 200s this morning. what is going ON? maybe it could be stress, i'm not real people sick (unless i have some sort of sickness where i feel totally normal), could it be these sinus headaches?

either way, i'm wondering if i should take a break for even just a week. maybe seeing those higher numbers and glucoasters are freaking me out and making it worse.

suck it, diabetes.