well this is a fun post to write after an exciting little celebration yesterday.
of course you know i got my dexcom about a month ago. and i've been wearing it ever since. it's a blessing and a curse.
yesterday, i tweeted this picture:
yeah. that made me feel AWESOME.
my dexcom is amazing because it shows me if i'm steady, heading up or down and usually is very accurate. it's a curse because i can see my trends and i feel like i really don't have great control. that feeling completely sucks. i'm responsible for myself, yet it doesn't look like i'm trying. and OF COURSE i am. it's not like i get to take a break from this crap. and sometimes, i can't figure out why the hell my graph looks like this. yesterday i hung out at 200 or above, and had hardly eaten anything. talk about frustration. i changed my site and suddenly, after dinner, i was 46. WHAT?? and it felt like a horrid low since i was high all day. but of course, back up again and i'm hanging out in the 200s this morning. what is going ON? maybe it could be stress, i'm not real people sick (unless i have some sort of sickness where i feel totally normal), could it be these sinus headaches?
either way, i'm wondering if i should take a break for even just a week. maybe seeing those higher numbers and glucoasters are freaking me out and making it worse.
suck it, diabetes.