yep, we get burnout sometimes. and i've got it.
and i'm pretty sure it's because i got bronchitis. and then i am pretty sure i had a sinus infection after that. and i'm STILL not over coughing, and my nose is all stuffy and i sound like a frog.
it feels like 80% of the time, my blood sugars are high when i test. and i get so annoyed and frustrated. and then it does the opposite of what it should do, i should want to correct and eat all the right things and go low-carb and exercise ... but what i do is eat not the greatest choices but take the right amount of carbs and then not care, and not want to check my blood sugar because i don't want to see a high number. and i try to do the right thing and not eat all the sweets that have magically appeared in our breakroom. and not get a treat because i know the reason i think i am craving one. because i'm TOO HIGH. stupid. annoying.
and i don't tell people about it because i don't want them to worry, or tell them they feel bad for me, etc etc. i just deal with it and move on. it is what it is.
sigh. i'm just over it right now. and i don't want to bitch about it, but shit. i'm over it! hopefully by getting it out of my system, i will break out of the funk and get my shit together.
don't be too hard on yourself! you are certainly entitled to some venting and whining!
ReplyDeletei don't eat well when i'm stuck high either. it's like, what the hell, i'm already high...
germs, take a hike already! hugs!
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ReplyDeleteMy counselor told me that it's okay to have a "pissed off" day at diabetes. She said go ahead and have it, and then move on. I never really thought about that, until she mentioned it.
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